Where do I begin?

I find that I derive so many inspirations from so many sources, yet it's difficult for me to inspire myself to do the things that I need to accomplish in order to achieve 'true happiness'. I wait and wait for things to happen that will improve my life and my state of being on a personal level and yet I'm very much a go-getter in other areas of my life where I know sitting around and waiting will yield nothing. How does one change this pattern? Like the photo above, I would love to be a celestial light in my own right, but I have not found the path that has lead me there. Where do I begin?

Along with my locs journey, I am also on a weight-loss journey. All in the hopes that these will lead to a path of self discovery that I've not experienced in my life. My confidence and self esteem have been weakened by recent experiences in my personal life and I hope to learn the things about myself that I have yet to figure out and heal. Will a severe loss in weight help me conquer my fears and improve my self esteem. Must I delve deeper inside myself and go beyond my outer appearance to truly find the answers I seek? Where do I begin?

Will I ever find love that will endure with a man that is as worthy of me as I am of him? Where does the journey to find him begin? Is it destiny or timing that brings true love into your life or since we are blessed with the freedom of free will, is it opportunity and searching that leads you to your mate? And if so, where do I begin?

I don't have the answers to these questions yet, but I hope that at the end of this long journey I have embarked on, I will. Only time will tell.....